I feel like the life I have carefully built around me is crumbling. It’s kind of like in “Inside Out” when Riley’s islands were shutting down and collapsing into the abyss of lost memories. My islands are slowly being destroyed and there’s nothing I can do about it. I didn’t do anything in the first place.
My biggest problem is my mother and sister. No matter what I say or do, even in defense, is “proper” or the right thing to say. I can’t be around them anymore. If I am around them for another minute I may just leave for good. What can be so bad to make an 18 year old girl to move out of her home that she adores, you may be thinking.
My mother and sister are inseparable and now identical to each other. I was pushed out of my mother’s life and replaced. I am now only another mouth to feed, extra piles of clothing to wash, another individual to worry about. She has even commented that I didn’t feel like her daughter anymore.
She is treating me like this because she knows she can’t control me anymore. I tell her no and do what I want and she doesn’t like that. Ever since we were babies she controlled every aspect of our lives. If I make a decision that is not up to par with her she bitches about it for a LONG time. She was mad at me because I had dumped my boyfriend ( the 0ne before the one I’m with now), she was actually mad at me. She got up out of my room and slammed the door shut behind her. She hates my current boyfriend and so every chance she gets she bitches about him, trying to convince me to dump him and find someone more suitable to her liking. She hates my job and tries to find me new jobs, yet she bitches when I don’t take them seriously or tell her that I’m happy where I am. Those are only a few of the many examples.
My sister is like a Mini-Me. She shadows Mom and chimes in whenever it is convenient for her. She always has a nasty comment about something whether if it’s something I like, want, do, my WEIGHT (they both do that), anything! I’m tired of it. She treats me like I’m a child and I’m three years older than her.
She thinks that she’s so mature because she is tall and beautiful and everyone tells her that she’s mature. She isn’t. She said that my boyfriend yelled at her tonight when he didn’t, at all! She tattled on him and now Mom believes her and when I say he didn’t she just thinks that I’m sticking up for him.
I can’t get smart with either of them but it’s okay if they get smart with me. I say anything nasty to Katie and I get yelled at but Katie can call me a child and get smart with me and Mom just nods along.
I’m fed up. I really am. That isn’t even half of it. I could have it a whole lot worse but I’m getting tag-teamed. My mom admitted that she didn’t know who I was anymore and didn’t like the “new” me. I can’t put up with them anymore. I want to move out and never see them other than the holidays.